Yesterday my boyfriend and I were on a camping trip and we stopped at a diner for breakfast. Eating in public is tough for me, but I decided I really wanted to just relax and have a good time and I decided to give it a try. Towards the end of the meal I started to have a panic attack, and I put a mint in my mouth to try to calm down. It didn't work. I ended up getting sick on the floor a little, then went outside and got sick on the pavement. Right next to a huge window that looked into the diner, so everybody inside could see. My boyfriend brought me a glass of water and I managed to calm down enough to stop, but it was extremely embarrassing and I've been thinking about it all day. I feel horrible that I might have grossed some people out during their meal, I feel horrible that my boyfriend saw it, I feel horrible for making such a huge scene, and I feel terrified that it will happen again.
This is the third time that emetophobia has recently made me so anxious that I actually got sick, and this time it was very public. I hate that this is happening now and I can't seem to find any mentions of this happening to anyone else - every other emetophobe seems to say that they rarely if ever get sick because of their fear, but for me it causes it. It's such a nightmarish situation and it's really bothering me that I seem to be totally alone in it. Has anyone else experienced this, or read about anyone else experiencing it?