Ugh.

Today I was driving and I witnessed something that has never happened to me before. There was a traffic light, so I leaned over to get some hand lotion out of my purse. When I looked back at the road, I saw the back door of the car in front of me closing after something had spilled out onto the road. For a split second I thought "oh no" but managed to convince myself that he had just dumped water or something out...until the car stopped again a few moments later and the door opens again. This time there was no mistaking what was happening. I got in the next lane as soon as possible and that's what the panic attack hit. My heart was racing and I began hyperventilating. I started trembling violently and my foot was shaking like hell on the gas pedal. I wasn't even sure I could continue driving but I was also afraid that if I stopped to calm down, I would get worse because I wouldn't have the task of driving to distract me.

Like I said, I've never had this happen to me before and I'm a little worried that now traffic jams will begin to make me uneasy, similar to how I don't like being in crowds for the same reason. It was a car full of younger people, so most likely there had been drinking. It ruined my whole day, this coming after I had just had a terrible week with other life issues and was finally beginning to feel more uplifted. Ugh. I just wanted to share it here because there isn't anyone else I can really tell about this who will understand why it bothered me so much.