Hi everyone, I'm a 19 yr old college student, and I can't BELIEVE i found
this place!! I read a ton of the posts and I feel so akin to everyone...i have
dealt with this my whole life...it's so bad, I just get petrified, well I don't
have to relate it to you guys I am sure you already know the terror we get
The worst time was when my sister had a ridiculously bad bout....I tried
to sleep in the car but i could still hear the noise, and it frightened me in
such a inescapable primal way that I ran in my pajamas a few blocks and
spent the next two night in the park. Sleeping in the grass like a
homeless person. And I was so ashamed and embarrassed at how i was
acting, but i couldn't shove it aside!!! I have tried to deal with it, and this
is why i desperately need some help now:

My boyfriend of a yr and 4 months whom i love dearly recently got an
apartment with me, and I have taken over the role of dutiful
housewife...and he was SOOOO sick all this morning, and my only
thoughts were to make sure he was comfortable and alright....my god....I
cleaned his vomit...I was shaking and crying but I did it, i just told him to
ignore me and that i was a ridiculous illogical dork But right now I am
too scared to even sleep...I was able to suck all this up for him, and now
he is comfotably laying in bed without having...had an episode...since 11
this morn. But I can't help being horrified at the thought that i might get
sick! I told him my worries but he doesn't understand at all, and I don't
want to make him feel guilty for being sick. I know it isn't his fault...my
christmas is so ruined *cries* I know this post is way too long but please
respond, i am so afraid and alone in this right now

Love,
Char