Its 4.31 am and Ive been awake since 1.00am. I feel that im going to choke all the time, and also another symptom is that I feel on the verge of v**g all the time too as my stomach lurches up inside with this awful constant feeling ofnausea.I havnt lived a normal life for about 6 months as Im in bed all the time with this fear. My life has gone and it shocks my terribly when I look back to how my life once was. I cry all the time and im always knotted up, I dont answer the door to anyone and I want to die. Ive never had my phobia as bad as I have it now. Iv had a talk with the doctor and he has prescribed me some citalopram tabs but will not take them as the main side affect is vomiting as is with most anti depressants! It seems like there is no hope for me because every time I tried to get better, ie, hypnotherapy, tft, cognitive therapy it never worked and I seem to be getting worse and worse each day. Its absolute torture and I dont want to live. Has anyone else been in my position?