well today was the day that the community nurse and pysicatric doctor came to my home.And i was so nervouse,i have met the CPN before but the doctor i hadn't and i must have visited the toilet a good 4 times before they came LOL!!!!!


I've had this sort of visit before and it's just a waste of time as the NHS just dosen't have enough people working in the mental health dept and i find i can open up my heart and tell them how things are difficult for me and then it's like letting your barrier down ,to feel so ashamed about your life,.cry because u miss your family so much and i always feel they look at me strange when i explain that some things can be difficult for me to do as my phobia is such a big part of my life.....Well after the last time they came out and explaining that i was agrophobic they offered me counselling for breavement but i had to travel to a clinic about 20mins away,not only is it hard to get out but the place i had to go was my doctors,Which of course could only happen to me,but a kid was sick right in front of me the last time i visited,so as u can probably understand,getting out of my home is difficult but to go to a place that reminds me of my worse fear and sit and talk about my breavement was just not working for me,and i just felt like everything i said about my agrophobia had just gone over these therapist heads......So i was waiting for the thoughts today and they have said depending on what support they have,they will get back to me after it gets discussed on friday when all the therapist get together.They have said i might get an occupational therapist which would be great but i'm just going to keep my fingers crossed......


Anyway i thought i'd keep u up 2 date with whats gone on in my exciting life today....


Vicky xx