I honestly think that sometimes, somehow I use it as a crutch. Or, at least I have. I think my reason for not making progress is usually a mixture of many of the above stated reasons. But I know that I have been very close to conquering it before and kinda chickened out on myself. That made me wonder what emet must do for me in order for me to want to hang onto it. I guess maybe it's that I am already familiar with these issues and this fear. I'm worried about the unknown.