is the best feeling. i can withstand any n* or panic attack if i know i'm
hungry because this means that i'm not truely ill. i know it's
unhealthy to feel hungry all the time, but when i'm away from home
(at home i'm able to eat pretty adequately), i cannot eat anything of
substance. i panic if i don't feel hungry. like if i'm not hungry, i
assume i'm ill.