More wonderful exposure therapy.

[silver]

I am not sure how much more of this I can take...over the past two weeks, I have posted about 5 different v* incidents that have taken place. Well, this weekend was no exception...My husband's grandmother caught a sv* right after Thanksgiving. She had to be taken to the hospital. I went over to her house and spent time with her husband (my husband's grandfather.) because he has dimentia and was confused on what was happening. I wanted to go over there to be with him regardless of the germs, etc. Now I am extremely anxious and playing the "waiting game" once again...I think that there is a reason for everything. I think that there is a reason that all of this has been happening to help me face my fear. Its really hard right now, but I guess that each time it is getting easier to deal with. It is still rough though, sorry for all of the complaining recently...

[kayron]

My sister has posted several replies about your recent exposures. I have to put in my two cents. I am a teacher as well and I'm about to get outof this living hell! We have both had more exposures in the past two weeks than even someone who is not emet would be bothered. Kids have this thing that they evidently don't know when it's going to happen, so they do it anywhere. Not only has it been all around me in the school, but at home too. My husband went to his family's for Thanksgiving, and his five year old niece was sick with a fever, d* and v*. I thought to myself, well great. I have to see it, hear about, and dodge it all day at school. Now my husband may have brought it home to me. You know what bothers me most, I know that a lot of times people who get sick from an sv or food poisioning could have possibly avoided it if they just practiced simple handwashing or not eat that mayo that has been sitting out for 4 hours. It really frustrates me[img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img]. I walk around at school all day like a freak grabbing handles with napkins, washing my hands 20-30 times a day, spraying, wiping, you name it. I do all of these things to keep from getting sick and I wouldn't have to do all of these things if parents would give their kids a bar of soap and teach them to wash. Heck, these teachers here are the world's worst. They don't practice good handwashing either. I have pondered often why God put me here and if it was to teach me something or show me something about myself. I know that a loving father would not put his child through the hell that I go through here daily.I believe he is trying to tell me that I have made a bad choice and it is time to move on. It is so bizarre that with this illness, even as a Christian it is hard to find comfort in the storm. The fear grips you like something gnawing at you every day. It is not like someone with a fear of Tornodoes that worries you during the Spring. It is a fear that you have to experience everyday. Unfortunately, I get to experience it up close and personal daily in my job. I do keep this in mind, 'This too shall pass.' I know that I will get through this rough time and you will too.

[rubysoho120]

Oh no, I hope she is okay. How do they know its a sv*? And not fp*? I
think your doing great and handeling it all very well. Try not to
worry. You are great for going over and being with grandpa!

[silver]

Now I am starting to feel really scared that I am going to get the sv*. Its going around like crazy down here and two of our clients just called in because they have it....I feel like I am trapped in hell, but I am dealing with it the best that I can.

[kasey]

What part of the States are you in???


I can't escape it either...EVERYONE has it and all I do is hear about it. This is driving me insane!!! I just keep hear of kids getting it and celebrities and football players...GAWD this is making me crazy.


I am in Alabama...good ole bama

[silver]

I am in New Mexico...I HATE this time of year and we aren't even into full fledge sv* season yet! Sometimes I feel like I am doing really good and other times I feel like I am totally losing it and want to be in my house away from everyone!!

[silver]

Now my stomach is upset after lunch and I feel like I am going to have d*....HELP!!

[kayron]

I know what you mean. Sometimes I just want to run, but I wouldn't know where to run to or how far to run. It is going around here in Georgia and everybody loves to talk about it. Everywhere I go I overhear conversations about it. I think they know about my phobia and are just putting me through hell on purpose. It has been going on for weeks now. When will it end? I hope within the next few weeks it will die down. I would hate to think that Christmas will be full of anxiety over catching this crap. I would like to enjoy it.

[silver]

I stressed all last year around Christmas because that was when it was at its worst here. I actually did catch it last year and was miserable for two days. (no v* though, which I was thankful for.) Its like I can do a good job of dealing with it directly now, but when I am off by myself I start to get really anxious and wig out!!