Do you ever feel like....

[samara's on tv]

Do you ever feel like throwing up and just getting it over with? For the past few days my stomach has been off and right now, although I'm not nauseous, my stomach is churning and I have a slight gaggy feeling in the back of my throat. I know if I would just let myself puke I would feel better, I just KNOW it, but I can't and I won't and I just wish I wasn't scared, you know? If I could just jam my finger down my throat and make it all come up I would be so much happier and comfortable. As it is, I know I won't do it, but if my sister was feeling this way she wouldn't hesitate to do it! Why can't I get in the mindset that it's not terrible to vomit? There's also the problem of if I DID puke what if it wouldn't stop? What if it would keep going and going every time I ate something? GRR I'm so mad at myself cause I'm such a WIMP! What do you guys think?


~Monica

[shiva]

YES! I have... I so know this feeling. And I know what you mean about the worry about it not stopping. I think this is the scariest part of puking for me. Once, twice maybe even three times... no biggy. But what if it just goes on for freaking ever??? But logically, I guess if it were that bad we would be in the hospital and they would give us something to stop the nausea, no?


Aren't you sooo freaking envious of those people who can just puke when they feel yuk and go about their day??? (Yes, you Crimgoddess!!! I want your barfing abilities- and eyes!- damnit!!!)

[jandub]

I get so angry at times and think that very thing. The few times I've done it in my life, I've always thought afterward, "That wasn't so bad." Yet I avoid it with everything I have. I don't even think I COULD v* even if I wanted to. Many times I've been so n* for so long that I wanted it to end, but nope. Sometimes I want to experiment and just do it, and when I brush my teeth I always gag, and it doesn't freak me out, so I always think about just taking it a step further and getting it over with. But then, there would be no n* with it, but still, I think if I ever just got angry enough and did it, I may be less scared in the future. Janna

[tree1211]

I think it from time to time, but hell naw!


When I'm in that position, I always fight to the bitter end. The struggle continues. I always think the same what if it doesn't stop!!![img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img] YIKES

[Galadriel]

Yeah I hear you. Sometimes when I'm feeling real ill the thought just pops in how if I would just let myself get sick it would make me feel better, but I get the hang up of what if it didn't stop at just once? What if it started a cycle where I couldn't stop being sick? I've never been able to just do that like that. Only ever was sick after hours of fighting nausea from an sv. Argh!! I also get envious of those who can just v* and be done with it and it doesn't phase them at all!!

[Galadriel]

Aren't you sooo freaking envious of those people who can just puke when they feel yuk and go about their day??? (Yes, you Crimgoddess!!! I want your barfing abilities- and eyes!- damnit!!!)

Lol yeah Amber!! Send some of your puke abilities our way!!

[crimgoddess]

Aren't you sooo freaking envious of those people who can just puke when they feel yuk and go about their day??? (Yes, you Crimgoddess!!! I want your barfing abilities- and eyes!- damnit!!!)

Lol yeah Amber!! Send some of your puke abilities our way!!

hahahaah- trust me, you could have them if it meant not being sick as often as I am! For me it's more inconvenient than anything- especially when I get the urge while on public transport [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]


I don't get how I can puke, and then 5 minutes later head out the door to an appointment......but if someone in my apartment even mentions feeling pukey, I freak out like a 4 year old. There's f*cking irony for yeh!


Shiva- don't worry, the eyes are yours if you want 'em...just be aware that you will be farsighted and will likely have early wrinkles from squinting (and not wearing glasses as often as you should).


I would have to say, Monica, when faced with your dilemma- I would likely just let it happen. For me, it definitely gets rid of the majority of the nausea- it's almost like my stomach is saying "okay folks, get the f*ck outta here so all of us can feel better".


wow- 2 f words, one post. Can you tell that I have been holding in my potty mouth for 8 hours at work?


*amber*

[punchbuggy]

i know exactly what you mean . and i HATE that.

[stormchaser97]

Yes! that's exactly how I feel. I ate something really greasy one night and I came sooo close just trying to get it over with and feel better. But I stayed miserable and fought it out. I know how you feel about the afraid to stop thing too. You really nailed that one.

[grelvia]

OMG! I used to get sick everynight and by sick I just mean n*. I would eat like a hog and know that later I would suffer the consequences. Well sometimes I would make it as far as the bathroom to try and v* but when it was almost to the point, I would stop! After gagging though, I would usually feel better.


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It's weird because my mom once went and had dinner with my grandma and stepdad and she over ate. Wellafter her dinner she came to visit and she asked for a huge glass of water. When I handed it to her, she walked into the restroom and I guess she drank the whole glass of water in order to force herself to v*. I was in shock after she came out, because she walked out very casually with a huge smile on her face. Oh and trust me she's not bulimic, lol! I could never imagine actually doing it. I just try and get a few gags, that always helps a little. I guess it sort of releives tummy pressure or something.

[ginger_saves]

Yes, when I am home or in my car and have severe n*, I try and start gagging into a bag and stick my finger in my mouth. It only worked once years ago after taking some antibiotics that made me sick. Icouldn;t take itanymore-I stuck myfinger in mymouth about 4 times and finally-it was small amount and liquid. I felt so much better after and was able to sleep like a baby soon after.I felt proud ( so strange)that I was able to do it that way and not have to suffer all night. The worst for me is when I feel n* in public ( which seems like all the time lately-my anxiety is getting worse and that is my major physical symptom with it). All I want is to be able to make myself v* when the n* is so bad.I just want to be able to v* quietly in abag. I saw on that E! True Hollywood story that the Barbi Twins ( personally, I think they are butt ugly but lots of guys loved them in the early 90's),that they were bulimic and would master the art of v* in bathrooms so that no one even suspected a think. They said it would be a smallcough and that was it. Just a small cough! I would only want to have this ability when I am away from home. When I am home, who cares but I do shut doors and when it happens, I try and put myself back together quick.