Just Found Out I’m Not Alone

[stephaniesmith]

I never realized what I had was an actual phobia. I've just always thought I was a wuss. I knew it was a little strange that I freaked out and actually ended up making myself nauseous when I knew someone was sick. I don't sleep, because every time I get sick, it's in the middle of the night, waking me up out of a dead sleep. A couple weeks ago, I didn't sleep or eat for three days. I had dreams of being trapped somewhere (like in the shower) with someone being sick in my bathroom. It finally eased off a bit, but now it's bad again. One of my son's friends got sick lastnight in my living room. He's fine, so intellectually, I know that something he ate just disagreed with him, but I am so terrified I can't sleep or eat. My husband thinks I just need to "snap out of it", and no amount of explaining can make him understand that I can't. I have sprayed my house ALL OVER with lysol. Steam cleaned the carpets, even BLEACHED my carpet. I'm scared all the time. I can't sleep, I panick if one of my kids is sick, I'm constantly monitoring other people for signs of sickness. I don't think I can live like this anymore, but the alternative is even worse. I've heard that the only way to treat it is to face it, and there is NO way. Anyway, thanks for listening.


Stephanie

[Carolee]

Hi Stephanie, Welcome to the site! I really hope you find support here You can talk to us about anything regarding life, or your phobia!

[christianne]

Hi Stephanie!!

Thanks for sharing your story with us---my goodness, you sound like me! I'm a mom of a 9-year-old and I worry constantly about him getting ill or me getting "THE" phone call from school or him waking up at night----and so on and so on. I actually worry more about him v*ing than myself, and I know how tough it gets. Sometimes it's so hard to be a mom with this awful phobia!!

There is so much information and advice on this site---it's wonderful how much it has helped me. Alot of amazing people on here too!!

Welcome to the site!!

[valkyriegrl]

Hi! I can totally relate to you, right down to the frantic cleaning sessions! Welcome to the site, I hope you find that it really helps when you're panicked to have people to talk to that get it, I know I do!

[daffodil]

Welcome Stephanie![img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[tree1211]

Welcome, Welcome, Welcome


You are not alone, I have the same issues that you have too. I have three children and always worry about the late night stuff too. I worry about that one BIG time. The good thing is that my husband is here to help me with the phone calls from school and when they get sick at home.


We are here for you to speak freely without making you feel like you're crazy. The good thing is that we can laugh about it too. It helps.

[stephaniesmith]

Have y'all ever actually worried yourselves into sickness? I think I actually CAUSE myself to feel nauseous sometimes, and that makes it even worse. It's like a vicious cycle. Today was the first day I've eaten anything besides soup and peanut butter sandwiches since I posted, and I feel sick. My son said his stomach hurt, and I freaked. There are times, like today, where I am so tired of being this way.