Thanks, I am feeling a lot better today. I even felt better last night, to the point where I ate something. I took a lot of Pepto Bismal Max, and laid down. Then I just kept trying to say to myself, in my head, "It is okay if you v*. You will be alright. It will pass. By tommorrow you will be fine. You won't die (which is strange cause I don't even *think* I would die from v* but I said it anyway just in case somewhere in my unconscious I thought that). John will still love you. You can turn the lights off (thanks whoever gave me that idea!). No one will hear you." and I actually just started to feel better all around. Not sure if I would have felt better anyway at that point cause I have tried these thoughts before with no success.

Anyway maybe thoughts like this would help someone else out there! Take care.