I thought that I was doing so much better emet wise over the past months. I felt like I made so many advances and was really proud of myself. I thought that I was doing well with all oftheexposure therapy that I have had in the past couple of months...I was wrong. I am such a wreck right now. I have spent every day wondering if I am going to get the sv* that day. My IBS has been TERRIBLE lately and I can't eat anything without it going warp speed out the other end. I still do everything like go out, go to work, go shopping, etc...but my anxiety is horrible right now. I guess that I am right back where I started and I am pissed off about it. I want to get past this sh*t and have a normal life and not be afraid all of the time. I am tired of my stomach hurting and tired of being afraid. This fear has gotten to the point where it is stupid and I am so sick of it. I am scared to death of it, but I would puke anyday just to make this fear go away. I feel so frickin out of control right now and I am so frustrated with myself for being so stupid.
We have got to be able to laugh at ourselves about this!!