thanks dutchess. i would give anything if the phobia were "returnable!" I would even exchange it for another phobia, say of snakes or heights. At least those don't pose a threat EVERY SINGLE DAY. now I find myself worrying that if I don't worry, I will be sick. What kind of I screwed up reasoning is that? [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img] I hope you're feeling better too.