Quote Originally Posted by nicki77
Quote Originally Posted by hairfixer35


It it me or does anyone ever think this way:


Wonder if you were told you had cancer and needed chemo....would you be so fearful of chemo and v* that maybe you wouldn't go through with it?


Interesting that you bring this up. I found out I had breast cancer 4 years ago. I was soooooo terrified. My mom had just had open heart surgery and I didn't tell her for fearthe newswould kill her, as her sister was dying from cancer. The girl I was dating( 5 years worth, mind you) left me when we got the news. I was forced to undergo this on my own. The fear was overwhelming, but I did it. The lump was small, and able to be completely removed with surgery. My doc wanted to do chemo as a preventive measure. I did...for a while. I met the girl I am with now right after it began. I never v*(I had good anti-emetics), but I was constantly n* and very weak and tired. My main thing seemed to be that I was prone to pass out. My skin became jaundiced and my hair started thinning out pretty bad. It became impossible to enjoy this new relationship I was in. After 2 months, I just decided to quit treatments and risk it. I'm still good, but always worried and alert for changes. My body image is all weird(though Dee would tell you it's beautiful). I must appear to really enjoy boob massages, as it happens so much. If it were to come back...I would do it again. I would know the hell to come, but I would do it.





Good for you. You are very brave and i hope the best for you =)