I very much hear you. I feel very similar, I feel like if I give in and get sick then its something shameful that could be inconviniencing someone (say if I got sick at work), and people would look down on me for it, but then again I wonder how can other people just do it and don't have that with it? Its like I've got all this bad feelings attached to the act of v* that I've picked up somehow, and those feelings don't have to be attached to it (the shame, guilt, inconvinencing someone). I really get feeling like if I did get sick, then its something I must have done to make myself catch it, so its not as "valid" if I get sick say as compared to someone else.

I wonder if other emets have this as well, if they feel this way?

Edited by: Galadriel