First of all I think you did great fighting it like that- because you had a job to do and you didn't let your emet stop you. I think you're being too hard on yourself!! You didn't leave, you didn't panic- you went on with your day! [img]smileys/smilies_39.gif[/img]Don't stress over it- just think of it as the triumph it is! Any person in your position would have been begging themselves not to v*- emet or not.


I think part of our fear is (well definitely for me anyway) that because when other people v* I think they're disgusting that everyone will think the same of me if I do it. But it's just NOT TRUE!! To non-emets, it's just a normal part of life. Most people couldn't care less if they saw you v*.


Have you talked to anyone about this? You seem to have a million too many thoughts in your head [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]and it might help to work through them with someone else so you can figure everything out. I'm the same way- my bf is always telling me he wishes he could just turn my brain off sometimes when I start to over-analyse...


But don't beat yourself up!We all understand where you're coming from and can relate... trust me I'm just as confused as you are lol[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]


Kayla