I just tried calling in sick and they told me that I either have to go in, or find someone to cover my shift. F*** them. As if I have the energy to do this right now. I hate this. I'm most definitely not going in - they can deal with that themselves.


I didn't eat anything weird last night. I had a bowl of cereal - a small bowl at that. I'm just scared I'm going to throw up. Do you think I would have already if I were going to? My stomach feels mostly nervous now. I keep getting waves of "dread" and anxiety.


I am absolutely terrified. Its the weirdest thing.... Other than cramps and diarrhea and weird feelings in my tummy (anxiety), I don't feel like I have the flu. No chills, no fever.... no fatigue.. no aches. Even the deed itself wasn't ummm... smelly. Sorry, that was gross.


My boyfriend just called from Mexico. I bawled in his ear for 20 minutes until he had to hang up. I miss him like crazy. I hate this. I've been crying for over an hour... I'm terrified.


Lisa