I so cant believe im writing this entry but its true im over my phobia, basically this is what happened (some a little graphic)
my boyfriends mum caught a sickness and diareah bug in the middle of the night, me being like i am i ran straight out of the house and stayed with a friend i stayed there for 2 days and because my boyfriend didnt get sick i thought i was safe so i went home, then for the next two days my boyfriend started feeling really weak and tired thinking it was a cold or something we went shopping to a supermarket then all of a sudden my boyfriend ran off towards the toilets, i was hoping it was a false alarm but then i heard someone say to a cleaner in the store 'theres a young lad thats just thrown up all over the toilets' i got so scared! i started crying i felt so stupid but my boyfriend came back out and he felt fine he did say that he has never been sick that much in his entire life but other than that he was fine.
Obvisouly i stayed at my mums house that night and i phoned my boyfriend in the morning and he said he was fine all night and hes ok now he said it might have been something he had eaten so i went back home and i was fine for a week, then tuesday morning i went to work and felt fine i was fine all day until i got home then i kept falling alseep and my stomach was churning, then i got extremely bad diareah it was just pure water... i started panicing but everyone tried to convince me it was because i have IBS after about 4 hours of diareah i started dry heaving realy badly but i hadnt been eating so i had nothing to bring up io did it about 5 times then went to bed and got up about 5 times during the night and dry heaved a couple of times, i kinda just laughed my way through it!
and then the next morning i was fine i just felt tired!
BUT NOW IM NOT SCARED ANYMORE!! I CANT BELIEVE IT, ITS NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE IM SO AMAZED!!!
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