Wow, that really is great you felt the expereince actually helped you. You do find that once it actually happens it's not how you imagined in your head at all. and 29 years must have been a long time to acumulate negative thoughts about it! Well done! And well done for realising that it is a bodily function that is necessary from time to time. It's our bodies way of protecting us from nasty bugs. I remember when i v* for the first time after getting the phobia i was straight on here as soon as i felt better writing about how much better i felt and how proud i was. At times i felt scared again but i found re-reading my post and all the night supportive words people gave me helped me alot. (I suggest printing it out, thats what i did and i highlighted all the positive words from people).

Well done again
Katie