I think we are definately in the minority but welcome -- nice to have someone to definately relates to my life. What you said is EXACTLY how I feel. I am always looking for the sick one in the crowd and get so.... upset when my relatives bring their sick children around.

One time my SIL brought her daughter over and she proceeded to tell me that her daughter had been up all night v* with a fever -- I MADE HER GO HOME...

Don't think she has ever quite forgiven me but... I warn EVERYONE (because I really don't care what others think) of my phobia and ask them not to come around me or share "stories" -- just makes me panic.

I do have a 13 year old daughter and up until a week ago I had NEVER cared for her while she's been ill (I posted this elsewhere). I would pace the floor while calling anyone and everyone that might take her and care for her all the while crying and feeling bad FOR MYSELF (now that's what I call selfish). Then of course there is the guilt that comes with not being able to be there for family when they need me...

Anyway I'm long winded as you can tell - LOL...

Welcome again -- I hope you find the site both helpful and insightful.