wow.. So i dont think i have been on this forum for nearly a year! i have missed it. Well lets see i guess an update is called for. So i am still struggling with emet .. going on lets see... 17 yrs about now. I have seen about 3 different types of counselors. One whom had never heard of emet but was willing to help and helped me somewhat with determining what was n* and was just anxiety and to be honest i learned that most of the time... it was anxiety and you can talk your way out of it. However... it didnt totally work. I worked pretty hard at trying to do a phobia workbook daily pretty much. It helped quite a bit but not when i was actually n* or if someone else around me was sick.. the panic came back. I tried to talk to myself rationally but its easier said than done.
Anyways its been like over a year.. and its good to be back around people who understand another problem i am still struggling with is my hiatal hernia. Its horrible and causes most of my anxiety... since it feels like liquids and foods just sit up in my throat most people with this feeling would v* but.. i just sit around uncomfortably trying not to freak out cuz i can feel it my throat at all times.. sorry if this is too graphic for some. anyways but because of this i am constently dehydrated.. i cant drink water and if i do even half of a glass i have to sit up for atleast 20 mins. Its honestly pretty miserable but i have lived with it now for 10 yrs. However i hate the surgery word since i am scared of surgery...not cuz of pain but u know why... but
i did FINALLY get the plastic surgery i have always wanted 5 months ago.. and was fine. They have a pill now u can take before surgery that prevents you from v* for up to 48 hrs.
anyhoo.. Hello to all again i used to know.. and anyone i have not met! thanks for welcoming me back to the boards!!!
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