I thought the same way as you, I thought that if I could just get used to it I can handle it better when it really happens. But, it is so different. I did this, thinking it would work. So if anyone wants to try it, I would not suggest it. I guess when you make the stupid mistakes yourself you learn the hard way. I can not say it made me any worse, I do not think. Just did not make me any better that is for sure. I just went through a whole lot of suffering for nothing, and it was a whole lot making yourself do something you hate. But go for it if you think it will help. I was really dissappointed it did not for me, then maybe I would not be feeling this way now. Oh and in case anyone or you were still thinking of trying ipecac, I do not think it will help. I had an experience similar, up all night getting sick and trust me it does not work. Maybe for a moment, but hey it comes back, for me at least. Basically, I want to stop anyone from making the same mistake as me...it sucks. I get sick more than a normal person because of myself and I do not handle it like a normal person at all. Go figure.