I dont know what to do anymore

[dipbomb]

I've hit rock bottom again. I was doing so good for so long. And since I v* about 2-3 weeks ago, I'm right back where I started. I'm miserable and CONSTANTLY feeling n* and sick and frankly I'm my sadness and fear is turning to anger. I'm angry at myself, angry at this n*. I sound crazy, i know but this is how I feel. Everytime i feel n* I cry, but I get SO INCREDIBLY MAD. ITS LIKE COME ON ALREADY. I havent taken my anti depressant in months and when I stopped, I stopped abruptly. Could that be adding to my depression and fear?

[dipbomb]

Also, to add to that my emetophobia gets MUCH MUCH WORSE at night. Right when I lay down to sleep. I havent slept good in days and I'm sick of it [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]

[driftinggoddess]

my emet gets worse at night because of the fear of doin it in my sleep!! but otehr then that you where strong and made it through the last time, it has to be so dang hard to go through, just being scared is hard but dealing with it, maybe you could take so anti nausea meds or something..

[paulinek]

I think alot of people with emet go through stages of it being anything almost non-existent right through to where they can't function normally in life and lots of different levels in between.

I've had that wehre i've gone years of being kind of okay then something will trigger it off and i'm back at square one again.

Anti depressants can helpt lift your state of mind just enough for to be able to deal with things better and not feeling so buried in a hole you can't get out of so maybe they would help again for a while?

The best thing though is if you could get some help to learn techniques to relax, and strategies for coping with it on a day to day basis, i don't know if that's a possibility but if it is i would seriously look into it.


And in the meantime like driftinggoddess says, try some anti emetics if they will help reassure you that you won't v*, sometimes if you know it won't happen it's enough get you out of the panic.

Hope you feel better soon x