My Daddy died last October after a long battle with cancer (over a year.)
The thing is, my emet came before this...[img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]
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There is another thing that kind of doesn't make sense. My Dad had espohigal (spelling?), throat, and stomach cancer all at once. Pretty much every minute (sometimes seconds) he was sick, either coughing and gagging up stuff. When he was having Chemo he was sick a lot, and at every meal with everything he swallowed he had to rush to the sink and choke it back up. This went on for a year and about a half. And it really wasn't pleasent, he retched every second of his time with cancer, and sometimes coughed up blood. You'd think that since I am emet that had to live through this, I'd be a mess. Well, no, actually. I can't figured out why this happened, but I handed him papertowels to cough into, was able to be in the same room as him while all this happened, could rub his back while he was choking, and even a few times held the bucket for him. And you know, my emet never kicked in when it came to my Daddy. In fact, I enjoyed the fact that I could take care of him in return for all the care he gave to me. I always saw his v*, flem, coughed up blood/food...did it bother me? No. Sage or ne one who knows, why was this like this? Because after he passed away, my emet was there. Even if other ppl were sick, my emet was there. Just not with him...?