I am really struggling. Lately I haven't been sleeping very well lately due to stress. I just seem to wake up for no reason in the middle of the night. I was beginning to feel very strong in the midst of all this swine flu stuff but the closer it gets to Christmas time the more worried I get. I know it's dumb. But I just feel full of anxiety. We just decided to go visit my family for Christmas and I am just worrying about the situation and all the people. And of course my daughter in school. Sometimes I feel this forum is great for me to hear all the stories, to know I'm not alone, or to even hear about people being sick, but in other ways I feel like it consumes my brain now. I'm always thinking about it. I want to not think about it for awhile. Why does this stuff get worse this time of year? Is it the weather? Why just this time of year? Is it because there are more people out and about? Less active? I don't understand. Does anyone know?
I'm so tired of worrying all the time. I want to feel strong again but still aware. Just not scared. Ugh! Is there such thing as a brain eraser?!