Welcome! And bless both your hearts. I know this feeling well. Bjean, I am the EXACT same way! Bring on any other illness and I'm good to go .. but involve v* and I can't handle it. I'm also on an anti-depressent and have found that my anxiety is slightly better. My fiance understands as well as he can .. he took care of both myself and my 3 y.o. when we came down with the sv* the same night. I am able to handle it better if I've already been sick w/it ... had my 3 y.o. gotten sick the next night, I'm sure I could've taken care of him, because the fear of "catching it" wouldn't be an issue. How are your daughters and yourself feeling now??