Hi all! My name is Keri and I am a 28 year old emetephobic. I have been living with this for 22 years and I am still fearful if not worse each and every day of my life. I have been in therapy, been medicated, been hypnotized... I have done it all. Am I missing something? Is there really anything that can be done to help me...I'm so sick of hearing "breath" "why panic when there's nothing to panic about" "take a Klonopin" "its just v* no one likes it"

Is there really any help...really...am I going to be constantly in fear that "omg I'm going to get car s*" "what if that makes me v*" "is that person going to v*" I feel like I'm going INSANE!!!! I know you all understand, but does a doctor understand....the answer to that is a BIG FAT NO! They brush it off, give you prozac, zolof, xanax, or klonopin and send you to therapy. Does the therapist ever understand?? "Its the fear of letting go" "its the fear of loosing control" "breath"....Here is a big middle finger to all you doctors and therapists who say you can help while laughing all the way to the bank with my million dollars worth of copays. Everyone says it comes from within....ok within....I DON'T WANT TO BE AFRAID ANYMORE!!!

I have already lost one child due to me freaking out about v*ing the entire time I was pregnant and now I can honestly say that I'm so scared to get pregnant again that I don't want to, and I know in the depths of my soul that I do want to try again, but the phobia stops me...how screwed up is that????

Sorry for being so blunt, but I'm mad....so so so so mad... I am an Ivy League educated director who is scared of v* and I'm pretty sure that no one/ nothing can help me...the only thing all the different medicines got me was 40lbs. That's right 40lbs all...and now I continue to gain weight as if I am still on the meds and no one knows why..."maybe a thyroid problem" "maybe stress" believe me, I have done all the tests...nothing is chemically wrong with my body....so now I'm a 180lbs fat phobic...with zero self esteem...thanks docs...thanks a lot...

I'm not new to this page, but this is my first post...is there really any help out there? Or am I just going to keep letting life pass me by with a phobia in one hand and a bottle of Purell in the other...