Re: Endoscopy
I had an endoscopy and colonoscopy done at the same time. It was easy peasy, seriously. The worst part was the colonoscopy prep, but you aren't having that. They gave me "twilight" anesthesia and I was really happy for about 5 mins and then I fell asleep! I felt n* before I got the anethesia and before I swished with the throat numbing stuff, but it was all from anxiety and not being able to eat. They gave me something for it and I was fine. I had no side effects from anything.
The thick stuff you swish is kinda icky, but mostly it's hard to gargle! It was actually funny because it was hard to do and it numbs your mouth which makes it harder. Although once it was numb you didn't taste it!
Just tell them how anxious you are. I knew I would have to be put under anethesia or I would be a wreck. They will work with you and it's not bad! I had myself SO worked up and in the end it was nothing.
“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”
“We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving. We pride ourselves on getting as little sleep as possible and thrive on self-deprivation. We drink coffee, a lot of it. We are on birth control, Prozac, and multivitamins. We are relentless, judgmental with ourselves, and forgiving to others. We never want to be as passive-aggressive as our mothers, never want to marry men as uninspired as our fathers. We are the daughters of the feminists who said, “You can be anything,” and we heard, “You have to be everything.”