Hi,
Im new to the website. I am 23 years old and I live in Sydney Australia.
Ive been a bad emetophobic for years and although I tried to hide it from my 2 younger sisters.. 14 and 5 yrs old, they seem to be the same way.
Anyway, I dont drink in fear of throwing up, I am afraid of getting stomach bugs, I wont do a neccessary endoscopy and colonoscopy that was recommended 5 years ago because I am gluten intolerant and I need to find out if I am a coeliac. I wont do the test because I am afraid the drugs they give you will make me sick or fasting will make me sick. I am so scared. If i ever feel nausea, i freak out so much and do what I can, i eat lemons chew gum take anti nausea drugs its crazy! I need to have someone with me if I feel sick cos I have a fear of choking on it. I dont know where it came from.. the only thing I can think is that y sis when she wa about 5 she had a fit and choked on her own vomit and turned blue and nearly died. Gees worst day of my life.
There are times people bend down to tie their shoelaces and I think they will be sick and i turn away the other direction. If i do see someone throw up from a distance, the thought repeats over and over in my mind for weeks making me feel sick. if a friend is feeling unwell, i will ask every 1 minute how their tummy is... and then not believing them when they say theyre ok because its not always true and they get sick.
I dont like going out late because I see bits of vomit from drunks on the ground and I am afraid every person I pass that looks drunk will vomit near me. Its the sound that drives me insane.. I cant bear even thinking of it. I dont know how to get over it, seems impossible! Im afraid of how this will affect my life... what if I want kids.. morning sickness?? When I fly i am looking around me afraid.. kids especially freak me out when they eat lots on the plane and complain about feeling sick. I try put my headphones on to not hear anything but its not enough... I sweat and get stomach aches and want to jump out!
Do I have any hope?