You are not alone.

Emet can be really hard to live with, especially when it's severe. Hopefully knowing you aren't alone gives you some comfort.

Really you just have to face this fear head on. You have to take it one day at a time. When you start to get anxious try to find something else to occupy your mind. It can be hard, but it can be done. I find writing things down help me a lot. I write what I am worried about and then I write why that's so silly to be worried about. I kinda write myself an inspirational letter haha It does help a lot though

Does your bf know about your fear?