SO!
In case you all don't know already, I had a very traumatic experience about a month or more ago when I went camping with my boyfriend. Long story short, he vomited about a foot from my head in the tent while I was sleeping and I proceeded to panic (like 10+ anxiety level) for the next 4ish hours and then feel like complete crap for the rest of the day. Not to mention being stuck in a car with him for a 6 hour drive home.
Needless to say, I have had an issue sleeping next to him since then. Usually, he comes to bed after I'm asleep and it's not THAT big of a deal. But, if he comes to bed with me, I feel like I have to stare him down until he falls alseep and make sure that he isn't going to be sick again.
Well. I had gotten better about trusting him and have been able to sleep soundly next to him again. Well, yesterday he woke up and went to the bathroom and then came back to bed and cuddled me which woke me up. He was being really stiff so I asked him why he was being weird and he said "I don't feel good.". I flinched away from him and stood up out of the bed and told him to get in the bathroom then. He frowned at me and said that it was just a slight cramp in his stomach and it was probably because he was hungry. By this time, I had inched my way to the middle of the room toward the door and my heart was racing and I felt my throat close up. I was probably at a 6 or 7 in anxiety level. BUT!! I was able to get back in the bed with him and hold him at his request until he said it had passed. Probably about 10 - 15 minutes. And, admittedly, I was ready at any moment to leap out of the bed and run in my PJs out of my apartment but I didn't. YAY ME!
I hope this means I'm on the right track to dealing with this...