I feel like I've had the best day for a long while.
My boyfriend has been having a hard time with some stomach problems which have been making him ill, and I've been refusing to let him come over and spend time together because I've been afraid that he's going to v* while at my house, which I couldn't handle. I've been doing this, even though spending all this time apart has been killing me a little.
But today, even though he said that he was feeling awful when he woke up this morning, I let him come over anyway. I think he got annoyed with me constantly asking if he was okay, and staring him down all the time, but I managed to spend the day with him, without panicking, and I even sat with him for two meals, one of which I cooked myself.
I know it's a small step forward, but it's a step nonetheless, and I feel like I've been pretty stationary the last little while, if not moving backwards.
Oh, a big help with managing the anxious feelings is something my mother bought me. It's called Bach's Rescue Remedy. I don't know if I just thought it worked because I wanted it to, or whether it's genuine, but it's something I'm going to keep trying in situations where I feel I'm losing control.
I hope everyone else is feeling good at the moment! xx