Hi struggling06,

You really need to get some help for your anxiety. Sounds like you're in the UK and they do have some good treatment programs there. Others on this board have gotten (your health care system) to pay for treatment from a psychologist-in-training as well. If your doctor couldn't help you, s/he's not very good. Any doctor should be able to refer you to get help.

If you can afford private therapy, go for that. If you can't find anyone near you, drop me a PM or an email.

Your career goals are SO important! Don't let this phobia rob you of your power to go toward what you really value!