sorry you're having a hard time...........you need to keep reminding yourself that eating will not make you sick........not eating will make you feel bad and could possibly make you sick.

did you every eat something that made you sick? think of all the times in your life that you've eaten and not been sick..........i'm sure the odds are really low that eating ever made you sick. you really need to force yourself to eat some things that are healthy .......maybe try some veggies or fruit. i'm not a meat eater........not emet based..just don't care for it......so i eat lots of tofu, fish, eggs for protein.......

maybe you could drink those shakes to help get your vitamins.....something like ensure or boost.......

i know it's hard but you've got to conquer this part of the phobia to give you strength to deal with the rest.......

remember that not eating makes you feel bad and then for us emets its all downhill.........stop the cycle.....