Awww I feel bad for ya ! Ive been in your shoes many many times b4. plus its hard to get people to understand Ur fear. they just don't ever seem to really get it! When I'm freaking out like that i go take a hot bubble bath stick some mint gum in my mouth and read a book or magazine . i concentrate super hard on what I'm reading instead of how my belly is feeling. i just stay in t he tub until i feel better and can go get in bed and go to sleep. i no its very hard to relax when Ur faced with the possibility that u might v ! just try and find something that you can do that will help to take your mind off of your belly! BTW your not nuts or out of your mind Ive had to talk to myself to help calm down and i also become very hostile and just want everyone to hush and leave me alone when I'm in panic mode!