Re: Serious topic-Suicidal thoughts
If you are thinking about harming yourself now, please either call 911, take yourself to the ER, or call a suicide prevention hotline 1-800-784-2433 or 1-800-273-8255. You can call suicide hotlines if you need someone to talk to, they'll listen to you even if you AREN'T thinking about harming yourself right now. If none of these appeal to you, and you aren't actively suicidal, call your doctor and make an appointment to go in. You need help either way. You shouldn't have to feel this way.
Believe me, even if you AREN'T "recovered," you CAN live a pretty normal life with emet! I am married, own my own home, work full time, am getting a PhD, get together with friends, and am planning a family. Do I have times where I'm feeling panicky and wish it would all just go away? Yes, but everyone has bad days, phobia or not. MOST days aren't bad though, and I don't have some super secret that makes me functional. I'm nothing special or brave or unique in any way. You CAN get your life back, but the first step in doing that is staying alive and getting help!
"I'm not supposed to be like this, but it's okay" -- The Wrong Child, R.E.M.