I would love to have your belief in god and take full advantage of it to help me through tough times (emet or otherwise) but i wasnt raised religious, i often wish i had been as it gives people something to both celebrate and put faith in when times are hard, it would be so comforting to know that someone (god??) is watching out for us. I have the prayer "footsteps" written out and keep it in my purse as it strangely gives me a little comfort. A million well dones for keeping a cool head in such a situation, i try to think rationally and think its only v, everybody does it, get over it!!! It doesnt seem to work that way though