Hi Everyone, I'm new...

[Tsukuyomi]

Hopefully this is the correct part of the forum to post this on? Excuse me if it isn't...

Anyway, hi, I'm new to this website, I searched help for this phobia and this website came up, hopefully it will help me with my fear... From what I've seen so far it seems like a very friendly community.

I've been struggling with this phobia ever since I can remember. I fear v* - ing myself and fear hearing/seeing other people do it. I feel like it's been ruling my life, because my day involves whatever it takes to avoid getting ill. I became a vegetarian because of it. When people ask me why, I always say it's because I just don't like meat because I'm too embarrassed to say it's because of my phobia.

I wash my hands whenever I can, I always think about what I ate during the day before I fall asleep, I can't go to bed on a full stomach, I avoid those I care about when they're sick, and I get panic attacks often and I have so many other weird quirks because of this. The anxiety and fear rules my life and it really sucks.

I can't talk to others in real life about my phobia because they don't understand. I feel like they just think I'm silly for it. But in reality, I'm constantly scared. I'm scared of myself and those around me, and germs. I was really glad to find out that others shared my fear and understood... Maybe I'll finally have somewhere to find comfort when I'm scared.

Anyway, hi again, I'm hoping to get to know some of you... Thanks for taking the time to read this. I'm hoping this site will help me at least a little bit with my fear.

[Elski]

Hi, welcome to the forum

[sage]

Welcome! I hope you can find lots of information here!

[aurora0917]

Welcome! =)
I'm somewhat new here too (joined last month). This forum is great so far, with so many understanding people who know exactly how you feel.

[mooki]

Tsukoyomi, when is the last time you've done the act?

[angela reece]

Welcome my story is exactly like yours this site does help

[thelittlestranger]

hi and welcome, i'm pretty new too, and it sounds like we're pretty much the same! this forum is really helpful, and in the past week or so i've been here, it's calmed me dramatically. be warned that some threads may be detailed in some senses, but everyone here has the same idea of trying to help.

if i can help with anything, just let me know. i understand how it feels for no one to understand what you're going through.