It sucks doesn't it?

[zipity]

Am I the only one who does this? As I lay here reading posts, I think to myself "if I v* it wouldn't be that big of a deal. I'm an adult and it's not the end of the world, duh!" But faced with the possibility of it, I freak! I hate it! I convince myself that I would totally be ok if I did. And I even picture myself doing it and imagine what I would look like and what it would feel like and I don't panic while thinking this. But as soon as something happens, like what happened the other night (see my post called omg I accidentally touched puke!) I panic. Ughhhh I hate this so much!!!!
I do have to say though, when I was faced with a very very realy possibility of v* when I was having my c section, I was pretty calm. I was thinking about it, but I didn't freak out. Maybe because I was drugged? I don't know, do they give you drugs other than the epidural? Lol I don't even know. But yeah after 32 hours of labor, the pain I was in was way way way way worse than v*. Honestly.

[KaydeeJayde]

I have a phobia of others being ill, not myself, but I do the same thing.

When I'm laying in bed next to my boyfriend, I think to myself, 'If he vomits right now... would it really be that bad? What would be so awful about it? The mess, the smell, the sound, but still, it's not that bad..." but if he actually says that he feels sick, I fly off the handle.

It DOES suck!

[zipity]

Yeah mine is the fear of ME vomiting. A lot of it is a fear of vomiting in public or around other people, other than my husband. The embarassment, etc. But the last time I didn't feel well and thought I was going to, it was HORRIBLE.

[hairyfairy]

I think that one of the worst things for me would be breaking my 14 year v streak. I feel that I would be letting myself down to lose control like that, & become like an animal or a baby, & having my body do what it wants. There`s no way I`m happy with that happening.

[chickman]

i often have the same thoughts about it not being so bad. it's a moment of clarity for me where i'm able to think of every else that is going so horribly wrong and how little our issues are compared to a devastating tsunami or civil wars in africa... and then later on, something will happen, i'll get nervous, and it goes right back to being a 'sick-centric' world. it makes me feel selfish at times. i'm the same way, much more frightened of myself getting sick than others... but i am also scared of others getting sick and then causing me to be sick.

so very frustrating. i remember thinking as a kid that by the time i was older, it wouldn't be a big deal anymore, that i would've gotten over it. :/