I think I see the light

[musicXfashionXsugar]

Hello everyone! Um, so since I had the hardest time ever this past October, I really started trying to kick this thing's butt. So I made a list of things I was afraid to do and I've just been doing them (I said it somewhere else, but I can't remember where.)

Anyway, so far I've: gone back to college and as of now I have straight A's! I've slept without medicine right by my bed, eaten at a sushi restaurant (and I mean I really let myself pig out lol) I watched a movie with V* in it and then rewound the movie to watch the scene again, just to push myself because I've just made 21 and I want my life back! I even survived a case of food poisoning (not from the sushi lol) without having a full blown panic attack (I did cry though, no V*)

But this was HUGE for me: I've stayed home alone for the past two days and nights! No parents, no friends, and NO PANIC ATTACKS. I feel like superwoman. I really feel like the only thing left for me to do is actually survive a SV without panicking, but um, I'm not going to go look for one. lol.

I just wanted to share this story 1, because I feel like celebrating and 2, because I hope it gives someone else hope. I've been afraid for 17 years and I'm finally getting somewhere and the crazy part is this is without therapy, and I've been to a therapist before. I've just decided to pray and do what I'm afraid of until I'm not afraid anymore and it is working. I used to think that there was no way to ever get better, that this was something that only got worse, but it's totally possible so don't ever give up.

[person54321]

Awesome! Well done! You deserve to brag about it, so do so! Congratulations on taking back your life.

[olschesky]

sounds like you are really on your way to a more worry-free life. congrats on taking all the chances ,,,,that's what it's all about......always remember how you did all these things with no problems.....keep going ....it sounds wonderful

[Tasha'93]

I really envy you for being so brave and just saying to yourself 'you know what, I WILL beat this', I wish I, and i'm sure a lot of other people would also wish they had the guts to stand upto this torturing phobia once and for all. Nice one, i'm happy for you

[chickman]

great job, keep it up! let's beat this thing!

[musicXfashionXsugar]

Thanks so much guys! It hasn't been easy at all, but it is so possible, I promise you.

[BenBHartnett]

You know, I gotta say. I love your attitude! I read your signature and it really encouraged me. It's just a stupid messed up fear that tries to take away from our lives. Good job on facing your fears! That is a great accomplishment and something to be greatly proud of.