happy than remembering one day i will V*

[lauren37]

Sometimes i'm in a good mood having fun and i catch myself and say oh yeah but one day i'm going to V* it could be today

Also i only eat like 5 foods and i'm afraid of pia for some reason and im trying pizza tomorrow with therapist really scared!! when i think pizza i think N* and V*

[brb.emet]

If you think about it, the chances of you getting sick on a regular day are not very likely at all. Noone v* for just any reason, especially when your having fun. As for the pizza, I remember when i first started getting back into eating different foods. I recommend not even thinking about eating the pizza, talk to your therapist about friends and jobs or school and it will take your mind off of getting sick. The problem with me, is afterwards i'm scared because there is no going back. But again i try to focus on other things besides my stupid thoughts lol.

[alisha27]

Don't dwell so much on eating the pizza or you will throw yourself into a panic. Pizza is one of those foods that cause me to freak out after eating it. I never been sick but never feel good if I eat more then one slice. I think it's all about the sauce, tomato sauce tends to be very acidic and grease doesn't help. I also think about how I will v* someday in the future and that really sucks. It also sucks that someday we are all going to die but we have to face these situations when they come and enjoy the life we have in the mean time. I am guilty just like you and many others of letting the dreadful thought consume my life at least a few minutes at a time each day.

[afraid213]

its funny, one of my "safe" foods is pizza.............and i only feel comfortablee with around 5 or 6 foods!

[orton99]

I understand where everyone's coming from on this thread, as I've thought this myself (and felt pretty horrified), but there is another way to look at it.

Part of the reason my phobia has got much worse in recent months is probably because I'd got myself into a mindset that I'd never be sick again. (Haven't been since 10 years old, in June 1983!) However, this very nearly came to an end last August and I was absolutely shaken by it, specifically because I'd allowed myself to think that "it'll never happen to me" so couldn't deal with it when it almost did.

Put that way, I think to accept the possibility that it will happen again one day is actually a good thing, as it's a step away from the unrealistic thinking that we probably all indulge in. The next one is of course to get to the point where you can contemplate having a stomach bug at some future date and shrug, thinking, "So what...?"

Ambitious? Yes, but that's why I'm seeing various people now and if I ever do think the thought above, then I'll know I've overcome this!!

Try thinking about it that way...

[lauren37]

thanks guys, but my appointment is soon and that's when i'm eating the pizza at 630 my therapist told me i only have to take a few bites but still im so scared im scared one im gonna feel N* or V* but i'm also scared at how panicked i will get and how i will make myself N* right now my stomach feels weird not sure if its nerves but im supossed to have a snack at this time of day and i'm never hungry! i ate lunch at 1215 im not hungry now but i guess i have to eat something (trying to gain weight)

[brb.emet]

You will be perfectly fine with eating pizza, you have probably had it before your fear went thru the roof, and there is no reason your stomach would want to get rid of it. You said your trying to gain weight, i used to be really sick last year because i only ate crackers, bread and peanut butter. But i have gotten better. I was admitted to a hospital in 5th grade because they thought i had anorexia, but it just made me worse. But now im in 9th grade and i can eat lunch at school and any foods.

And yes your feeling in your stomach is nerves. Or more likely your hungry. My brain always confuses me being hungry with being sick, but with me being a teenager im almost always hungry lol

[lauren37]

thanks for the support...i was almost admitted to the hospital in december because i was so under weight things are a little bit better but i am scared of a lot of fooods stil so gaining weight is hard. congrats on ur progress that's amazing you must be really hard working u should be proud of yourself im in 8th grade and have been suffering for almost a year

[person54321]

I eat pizza all the time. It's a staple of my healthy college diet! Lol. fp is INCREDIBLY rare. I've talked to a bunch of adults around me and I only know one person who's ever even had real diagnosed fp. I use her a lot as an example, but my mom travels 1-2 weeks out of the month, often to other countries meaning she eats out on average I'd say 10 times a week. She eats every scary weird food you can imagine and her favorite food in the world is raw oyster. She's even eaten a live snail. She eats sushi at least once, sometimes more, per week. She eats raw beef (not rare, raw), runny eggs, loves sketchy hole in the wall places, she is TERRIBLE about washing her hands (I mean really terrible about it), and in the past 30 years has only had two v* illnesses. Eating out will not make you sick! You will do great! Try not to think about it beforehand, or you'll get yourself more worked up and it will be tricky to go through with it.

[lauren37]

thanks! not too worried about fp* but worried about it just upsetting my tummy the greece and the red sauce

[person54321]

People don't v* from eating greasy foods. Gas, yeah, d* maybe, but v* definitely not.

[lauren37]

thanks...i ate half of a slice of pizza and pasta im still nervous and i had ice cream cause i'm suppossed to have ice cream every night im afraid it will be too much for my tummy and it will get upset

[chocolategirl]

Ice cream always helps my tummy! and pizza can be good if you have the right toppings! just find a topping of a safe food and it would probably be better! i always like bacon....