I'm so scared right now. I feel so sick. My stomach and throat keep
tightening. It's getting worse and worse, and will feel better for a
few minutes, then get worse again. My fiance's tried everything, from
breathing techniques to guided stories to just holding my hand and
trying to get me to concentrate on him rubbing it. Nothing's working. I
don't have a fever, he's eaten everything that I have today, and he
insists that it's just stress and I'm making it worse. I'm so
disappointed in myself. I was better for so long. I went for months
without feeling sick, and then when I did it would pass in a few
minutes. It's been getting worse and worse over the last week or two,
and I just want it to go away again. I don't understand why it's back.
I want someone to help me, and no one can make it go away. I don't know
what to do. I've take anti-nausea, I've tried all the usual techniques
we use for me to calm down, and nothing is working. I'm sure someone
will think I'm just being dramatic, but I don't care. Please someone,
anyone, tell me what I can do. I feel so sick, and it won't stop. If it
were food poisoning it would have hit soon after I ate whatever might
have been bad, right? If I were sick I would have a fever, right?
Please, please please, someone. Please. I wish I had an injection of
something to make me go to sleep so I wouldn't have to deal with this.
Jesus, I haven't been this bad in years, and I just want it to stop. I
wish someone would please just make it stop. I'm shaking so badly I can
barely type. My legs are shaking so badly I can't walk. I broke skin on
my fiance's hands from squeezing them so tightly. I don't understand
why this is happening after so long of being alright. I don't
understand why people like me and you all have to go through this. I
don't understand why ANYONE should have to go through this. This is the
single most horrible thing on the planet, and sometimes I think that I
would rather die than go through another second of this. It's just
getting worse and worse. It won't go away. I haven't been crying as
much as usual lately, and maybe that's why the emetophobia is getting
worse. I ate chicken from KFC that he didn't, and maybe it was bad. How
long does it take for the contents of your stomach to digest? I think
it's 18 hours, but I don't remember, and I don't want to wait that long
for this to go away. I just want to sleep. I want to sleep so badly,
and I can't even lay down because it makes it worse. I'm so sorry for
putting this here. I'm sorry. I don't know what other group of people
could possibly understand. None of my friends understand. My fiance
understands it to a point, but he can't understand it completely
because he isn't an emet. You guys are the only people I know who can
really really really understand what this is like, and I'm sorry for
putting this here. I'm sorry to anyone who feels like they have to
respond. This isn't your problem, it's mine, and I'm here on the
internet anyway rambling and freaking out about it to strangers, but
understand that it's so bad that I don't know what to do and I just
want to go to sleep. I want someone to hit me over the head with
something, or inject me with something to make me sleep, so I don't
have to do this anymore. I want to cry but I can't because that will
just make it worse. I don't know what to do. I want it to go away. I
want someone to help me, but I don't have enough money to go to a
doctor or buy the medicine they would prescribe. I don't know if they
could help me anyway. I'm tired of this, so tired of it. I want it to
just stop. I wish someone or something was strong enough to make it go
away, but that's impossible. I just want to sleep.