2 questions?

[fibigrey]

I see alot of you avoid eating alot.. but I have 2 questions....

1.) Aren't dry heaves alot worse than actually Ving? It hurts alot worse to get dry heaves, and usually if you get THAT bad of a SV, you are going to vomit, if your stomach has something in it, its alot less painful..

or do you tolerate the nausea and possible dry heaves for the fact that you won't actually V*?

and 2.) Have any of you ever actually made yourself vomit when you got so sick of being N*? I have.. the last SV I had, I was so N* for so long I had to make myself sick, and by the time I did it, that few minutes of being sick was followed by not feeling N* at all anymore and being completely better...

I am a smidge different than you all, or maybe my phobia isn't completely the same.. I read somewhere that the fear of others vomiting isn't actually emetophobia.. but I am so much more afraid of others being sick then me.. I really really dont want to get sick, but I honestly handle it better than if someone else around me is sick, you know? I'm the hugest, whiniest, self pitied thing when I have to V* but I don't panic and have anxiety about it like someone else..

[Rebecca85]

I'm the same as you, I am much more afraid of others vomiting than myself. It's still emetophobia, because that means 'fear of vomit'. I don't really mind dry heaves myself, when you do them before vomiting, as you don't get the awful smell and taste of vomit. I have never actually made myself vomit (except when drunk), but there does come a point where I stop fighting and allow it to happen. Which is why I don't class it as a phobia of myself vomiting, just a dislike.

[Jill in Apartment 413]

1) I had an allergic reaction recently and my stomach was constantly trying to reject what I had eaten, for three days, I wouldn't let it happen. On the third day, I started to gag and retch, I ran to the toilet and gagged so hard I pulled a muscle in my chest. At that point I was READY to vomit, but it just wouldn't happen. Am I glad it didn't? I don't know. I probably would have felt better but at the same time I would have panicked my butt off.

2) I was much like you when I was younger, I didn't care if I puked but I cared if others did. That being said I remember at age 6 or 7 feeling really nauseous and just letting myself vomit. I didn't freak out or anything like that. Now adays that's just unheard of for me!

[jaynielu]

I personally, would rather be in a HUGE amount of pain than let myself be sick... Lucky for me I have a very strong immune system and I can actually talk myself out of feeling sick... Which is why I have this phobia I can't understand why others have to be sick... I always ask myself, "Why can't they get a grip and talk themselves out of it"
I know it sounds mean and everything, I just wish people would wash their hands and faces (and brush their teeth), stop taking antibiotics (really bad for your immune system)... Oh and learn where their limits are with alcohol are.

So no, dry heaves are nothing for me, but neither is V*!
And 2. I haven't ever made myself be ill... as I can talk myself out of it...

The mind is a power gift that God gave us...

Take care

[Rebecca85]

I have Crohn's disease. If I need to vomit, no amount of talking myself out of it will stop it. And of course, I have to take immune suppressant medication every day. That's also bad for my immune system, but good for my intestines!

[hsbbd]

Personally, I have only dry heaved like once since I can remember and it was terrifying because, I mean, wha if the big v came next?? However, not eaten really helpsme out because eating makes me feel more n* and subsequently closer to v*. For instance, I went almost three weeks without solid foods because I was afraid I was sick but that story is for another day. As for your second question, I couldn't imagine making myself v* I mean, even if someone would pay me a million dollars, it wouldn't be enough. I will never get drunk so I will never have to confront making myself sick for that reason. As for the whole fear of myself v*ing or someone else, it is about on a level playing field but I often have to deal with others feeling n* and rarely get very close to v*ing so it isn't as frequent of a terror.

[cinque]

Hsbbd, I'm really sorry you went through that. I try not to starve myself unless I feel really ill. If I feel a bit n* but I am pretty sure it's anxiety, I will often try to nibble something if I feel able - just something small to see how I get on.

[hsbbd]

For me, it wasn't really starving myself, I just didn't feel like eating. I still had awful d* even without eating anything and the doctors began to fear me over hydrating. After about two weeks, it had become a habit so it was even more nauseating to eat than it was to not. It ended up that I began eating on a schedule to train myself to eat again, a half a cracker an hour, one, two, three, a half a banana, a whole and then finally small meals. I often had moments where I would relapse because whatever it was I had and fended off had destroyed my immune system and so I started taking probiotics and honestly felt better than I had in quite a while. Now I know to not starve myself just like you cinque lol