I have lived with emetophobia since age five. I am now 19 years old and I deal with IBS. (I believe that I have something else that caused the IBS not just my phobia) And I deal with stomach problems EVERY SINGLE DAY. I can barely eat anything cause I am allergic to gluten, dairy, nuts, eggs, sugar, etc. I literally have to choke down rice cause my stomach problems are so bad. I force myself not to get sick when I feel sick and when I do feel sick I freak out. So this is a daily thing. I dont know how to function, I might have malnutrition now and my health keeps going down hill.
I also have heart problems and the last time I got my defibrilator pacemaker checked my heart doctor said my condition is worsening because of not being able to eat and how sick I have been. And with what I have (heart wise) it can lead to death. Its called sudden arrythmia death syndrome. So I am trying to keep myself alive. I am only 19 and getting married in two months and I am a complete wreck. Since the doctor told me about my heart worsening I felt I needed help for my emetophobia so when I feel sick I will be able to eat without thinking I will throw up if I eat. I am TERRIFIED of vomit and vomiting myself. I would definitely rate it severe. And I need help so badly. I scream, cry, run out of the house, sleep out in a camper even if its dead winter with no heat. (I had to do this for 3 or 4 weeks this last winter cause my whole family and fiance got this flu thing) I am miserable and if I dont get help I can die. Can anyone help me please?