I understand where you are coming from. Actually if I was in the situation with the music festival I would have ran out of the tent and not gone back in there and I probably would have been shaking and crying. So I must say you handled that better then I ever would have. I have been dealing with emet since I was 5 or so as well and lately its taken over my life. I have STOMACH PROBLEMS!!! GAH! I would have NEVER thought I would get that with the phobia I have. I have to watch everything I eat cause I am allergic to more foods then anyone I know. I am down to rice, gluten free oatmeal, and chicken... If I eat something that I shouldnt have I get so sick. I have not thrown up because I force myself not to but I get sick for days. and my stomach will hurt for days which strikes my anxiety which flares like crazy every time. So I deal with it every day of my life. and now... I might have to be hospitalized for weighing 95 pounds, starting to lose my hair, and malnutrition... It's not going so well for me haha. It always makes me feel so much better getting all my feelings out on this website and talking to people with the same thing I have... EMET. It really does control your life and there is no way to explain to people how bad and scary it really is to us. I have had so many people to tel me to get over it and that I am a big baby. I get laughed at. The works. So I know how everyone feels on here. I have gone through it all. Have you heard of exposure therapy? I just heard of it and have been looking into it cause it sounds really good. It's a way to get over this phobia. I am about to be married in a month and a half and want kids someday as well! So I am determined to get this emet out of the way before I have babies. Look into it. I think it will help a ton. there is a website go to it and do your research www.emetophobiahelp.com