So happy i cried!

[thelittlestranger]

This might be a long post, but I can't believe what I've achieved.

For a few weeks now, I've been worried so much about a business trip I had to take to Southampton. It was an amazing opportunity for me and work, but ever since Christmas, my emetophobia had got so bad, that one time I didn't move off of the sofa for almost a week, barely eating anything but a bit of toast (if that).

So, this week, my tummy was a bit strange of course, my heart started racing when I thought about the journey and all the usual anxiety stuff. The trip was meant to be on average four hours long which I hated the thought of, as I'd be sitting in a car!

The Thursday, I got in the car. My hands were sweating, my heart was racing but I was in the car. And guess what? I bloomin' did it. Me. Of allll people, got in the car with two people I don't even know that well, and did it with just ONE stop. The on top of that, I went out for a meal in the evening.

I called my boyfriend on Thursday night and cried. I don't know how I did it, and I was so proud of myself, and he was IMMENSELY proud of me too. He told me how he always knew I had it in me, I just had to find it.

Well then on Friday after some time in the office, I headed back, this time with different people. And, no word of a lie, because of extremely bad traffic, I sat in the car for SIX AND A HALF HOURS WITH A 5 MIN TOILET STOP. Yupp. Would you believe it? PLUS I had a fry up in the morning.

Today, I have been feeling a bit strange on and off, but I think my body is in shock from what I put it through after wrapping myself in a bubble. To some people, this may sound like nothing, but I hate being out of control and I did it. I actually did it.

I just want to say to everyone that your fears can be beaten. No, not overnight, not in a week or a month, but in time, something might click, like it did with me. I still have a fear of v* and that might NEVER go, but I happy that I did something NORMAL without emet stopping me from reaching my goals. I'm sorry this turned out to be an essay but I'm so happy by heart wants to burst!

[nendre]

i'm really happy for you! and it does not seem like nothing- it's great, it's a big step! i remember when i couldn't go on a trip- i would shake so hard, and my heart would pound so fast, that everytime i was nearly fainting. but one day i just made a step- like you just did, and now i don't even think before getting in a car or on a bus (had a real problem there, lots of strangers, public transport, so sometimes i would go on foot instead, even if it took five hours...). so i really trully believe that this is just first of your victories against this phobia!

[thelittlestranger]

i'm really happy for you! and it does not seem like nothing- it's great, it's a big step! i remember when i couldn't go on a trip- i would shake so hard, and my heart would pound so fast, that everytime i was nearly fainting. but one day i just made a step- like you just did, and now i don't even think before getting in a car or on a bus (had a real problem there, lots of strangers, public transport, so sometimes i would go on foot instead, even if it took five hours...). so i really trully believe that this is just first of your victories against this phobia!

thank you so much for your comment, it only adds to how happy i'm feeling. <3

[olschesky]

awesome!!! now you can do anything

i felt the same way after my first drive to nyc.....10 hrs....but atleast it was my car so i could drive most of the time......but after i checked into the hotel i called my sister and cried..........

good for you

[asianeko]

Grats!! That first big scary step is the hardest, and you seem to have done it with ease!! Keep it up!

[rachel1989]

You have done so well and I bet your body is just feeling a bit off from all the emotions you have been going through including excitement and adrenaline! AAHH so happy for you, stories like this make you realise that emet and anxiety doesn't need to dominate xxx

[thelittlestranger]

You have done so well and I bet your body is just feeling a bit off from all the emotions you have been going through including excitement and adrenaline! AAHH so happy for you, stories like this make you realise that emet and anxiety doesn't need to dominate xxx

today i have been feeling a bit rubbish. i'm tired, and having a few bm's and some of them are slightly loose, plus i'm a bit n*. ): do you reckon it's what you said about though, just everything i've put myself through? thank for being so happy for me! and yes, o've realised (finally) that my emet is NOT in control of my life if i work hard enough. xxxx

[nendre]

it's completely normal i always felt tired both emotionally and physically, and n* after such "fights". it will get easier with time, symptoms will fade. try to rest, listen to some music, read a book or watch some tv. i'm very happy for you, and that now you control emet!

[thelittlestranger]

it's completely normal i always felt tired both emotionally and physically, and n* after such "fights". it will get easier with time, symptoms will fade. try to rest, listen to some music, read a book or watch some tv. i'm very happy for you, and that now you control emet!

so you think even though that all happened friday and it's now sunday afternoon it would still be my emet just being a bit of a pain after putting it through all that? everyone on here is such a star, i love the support.

[nendre]

yes. i also would feel bad for a few days, depending on the stress level, and you went through a lot. and the fact that you are thinking about it all the time and worrying that it should have gone by now, doesn't help. really, try to get your mind off it. it's going to be alright. and it will get easier. *hug*

[thelittlestranger]

yes. i also would feel bad for a few days, depending on the stress level, and you went through a lot. and the fact that you are thinking about it all the time and worrying that it should have gone by now, doesn't help. really, try to get your mind off it. it's going to be alright. and it will get easier. *hug*

thankyouthankyouthankyou. -MAHOOSIVE hugs back- i know it's going to get easier, i know it just has to now. i reached such a low point, i just hope my body is able to only move up from this point. thank you for all your replies and comments, wish i could meet you just to say a massive thanks. <3

[nendre]

i would like to meet you too! you really seem very nice and strong person and though i haven't seen you, i can guarantie that your body is able to move up, because my tiny and skinny as i don't know what did! strong belief in yourself can do anything!

[thelittlestranger]

i would like to meet you too! you really seem very nice and strong person and though i haven't seen you, i can guarantie that your body is able to move up, because my tiny and skinny as i don't know what did! strong belief in yourself can do anything!

that would be awesome, heheee! where abouts do you live? i'd never thought of myself as a strong person, but maybe you're right after all. and you just down right FAB!

[nendre]

i'm from continental Europe, Lithuania, to be exact

[thelittlestranger]

i'm from continental Europe, Lithuania, to be exact

oh wow, awesome! i'm from the uk, so a bit far, haha!

[Cupcake x]

I'm so happy for you! I remember the first time I pushed through my emet and did something out of my comfort zone and I was so pleased with myself. It's a great feeling. Keep it up!

[progeriac]

that is so awesome! congratulations. and you are so lucky to have a boyfriend who is so supportive, thats awesome too! woooo good job, cupcake!

[thelittlestranger]

I'm so happy for you! I remember the first time I pushed through my emet and did something out of my comfort zone and I was so pleased with myself. It's a great feeling. Keep it up!

it's a great feeling, thanks ever so much. <3