For me, I just got so sick of avoiding everything. So I started to push myself to go out. It was awful at first. I would have hour long panic attacks that were so bad I was sure I would die. But it seemed the more I went out the easier it got. I was so tired of loseing my friends one by one because I just couldn't leave my house. I knew that I would have a panic attack if I went to the mall, for example, but I also knew that it would pass and I would be able to enjoy myself. So I pushed myself through them panic attack after panic attack. Sometimes I had to leave wherever I was, other times I couldn't even get out of the car. But sometimes I would fight throught it and and tell myself I have had TONS of panic attacks and never once, passed out, vomited, or died. The attacks always passed, ALWAYS. I was in the fight of my life with my body and mind. I was losing myself to my fears and phobias.

To all of you who are in the worst of it PLEASE help yourself. No one can help you overcome this. You are in charge of your own body and mind. If you truley want to get better you have to work at it. It took me a long time and alot of pain but I pushed through and I am becoming the person I always wanted to be. I was 89 pounds, and house bound. No job, no drivers liciense and living with my mom. I had lost all hope for happiness. Then It was like a light went on and I just wasn't going to let this shit take over my life anymore. Now I weigh 140 pounds, I'm married, I own my own home, drive a car and have a full time job.

Things can get better. Please see that. You all are in charge of your own destiny dont let this rule who you are or who you will be.

Just remember Everyone dies, but not everyone lives.