I love your story. I'm in college now and I just started seeing a CBT a few months ago. Even taking that step and opening up is so empowering!! I read a book called "The Four Agreements" and it TRULY empowered me to take charge of my life and overcome my fears... because we can! We all have the strength! I mentioned that book before in another thread but I really recommend it to everyone with emetophobia if you feel hopeless or out of control. It's a great reminder that we are all in control and that our fears can be overcome. And that in the end, our fears will become blessings because they give us strength. We are all so strong!!