Re: My Dad Doesn't Get It
Hey, it's good to write down how you are feeling, it helps to relieve some of the stress. Many other people here understand how you feel and I do too. When I was younger I wanted to kill myself too, I was actually jealous of dead people because they no longer had to worry about throwing up EVER AGAIN. Non emets would think that is completely ridiculous and insane to rather die then be sick. Nobody who doesn't suffer can never understand the seriousness of what we go through. Therapist, doctors ect usually want to stem it down to something else or drown us in zombie pills where we feel numb. I wish your dad could understand you, I wish my family understood me. The only advice I can give you is to be strong for yourself, some days are going to be great and others not so great. Your life isn't worth losing over being sick, most the time what you feel is anxiety and irrational thoughts. Your dad wont listen to you so my suggestion is you tell someone who will. Maybe call a teen crisis hotline and talk to someone when you feel at your lowest. Tell someone who you can trust or sit down with your dad and beg and plead with him to help you. You also need to help yourself by controlling your thoughts. As you mentioned the brain is a powerful object and different chemicals, hormones released can be controlled if you just try. I never got help when I was younger, I some how was able to fight it, I'm not totally better and the fear comes and goes. I really wish someone would have helped me at your age. Please talk to someone and get serious with your dad about helping you. There is some emetophobia information sheets you can print out and have your dad read. Maybe if he is educated he'll understand it's more then dramatizing a situation. Good luck.
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