Yes she does know im phobic, I just think she thinks if shes a bit stricter I dont panic more because I have to do it myself. I see her logic. Shes bullimic you see so sickness is easy for her.

Just v* again, but hardly anything came up because i v* it all up the first go! So painful trying to v* nothing...

Thankyou. SOrry if im giving you too much detail but I just need to talk about it xxxx